Who are you?

This is SO True!!!

Ashlee

I miss my daughter.........

My son is here. It's so great to see him! We were able to introduce him to our good friends tonight. We had a great time, WONDERFUL dinner cooked by my husband! My son played piano. We chatted. It was a lot of fun. I had told them to bring along any of their family who was interested. I guess they were all busy but.... no worries! We had a wonderful evening! I really would hope to have a BBQ with our families next summer. Hope they will think about it. I think we could all have a lot of fun and really get to know each other!

Better than a patch!

Well... I've actually spent a lot of time crocheting lately. Trying to come up with the perfect hat for my friend's granddaughter. One that is not too big for her...LOL! I haven't crocheted in a long time.....and that was dolls. Cute dolls. I made 14 million (seemed like it anyway) of those while I spent time on bedrest. I made one a couple of years ago for a Christmas party. Other than that one, I hadn't made one in about 25 years. It sure helps me NOT smoke. That's good, right? Ahhhhh what a vice. Anyways, I have found this to be quite relaxing so, I think I'll get back into it!

The Good Old Flu

Well....I got the flu shot (not my idea....they made me at work). I have had it 2 times before. 11 yrs and 10 yrs ago. Both times, I got the flu. They say you cannot get the flu from it because it is a dead virus. Funny thing, I haven't had the flu in 10 yrs....since the last flu shot. So this year, I got the flu shot and guess what! I got the flu which in turn, progressed to pneumonia. I do not think people should be forced to have something they don't want. OK....well.....not exactly forced. Kind of coerced. If you didn't get the shot, you had to wear a mask for you entire shift for 6 months. I can barely get through a c-section with a mask on (an hour or so)! However, if they do this again next year, I think I'll choose the mask!

and now.....

down......

Ups and Downs

Things look up a while....things look down a while! Right now....things are looking up!

No Sugarland!

A LITTLE EYE CANDY

Back in Jan., I bought tickets to see Sugarland. Well...it was really Keith Urban's World Tour but, Sugarland was playing lead-up for him. My friend and I really love Sugarland. I like Keith Urban too....don't get me wrong! In fact, he doesn't have to even sing! He can just stand there and let me look at him for a while...LOL! He is a fantastic musician and performer though. He walks out into the crowd. That really impressed me. None of that, "you can't touch me" BS. He really plays to the entire audience no matter where you're sitting. Anyways, Sugarland has gotten their own tour now. I can't really blame them for wanting to headline. So, they were not there. I WAS SOOOO BUMMED!!! However, I did have a good time and did enjoy the show. Little Big Town was lead-up and were very good (I tried not to like them but found myself quite enjoying them...after all.....wasn't their fault)! It was a fun time!

Good days....Bad days

At this precise moment, it's been a string of Good days. I've found this happens & then, there is a string of Bad days. I just hope the Bad days will go away. They seem to be less often so, I'm trying to stay optimistic!

My Little Girl

See this beautiful, happy girl on the left? This is my daughter! I love her so much! She is carefree, a good mommy and sooooo much fun!

Here she is now (above). Where did

she go? I miss her.

regrets

there's a saying ....... something to the effect of "life's too short to live with regrets." well....... sometimes when you feel really hurt, you say things you regret. I think I do that more than anyone I know! so, if I hurt you by something I said (or typed, i guess), I'm sorry!!!!

2 Steps Forward & 1 Step Back

That is my life!

Friends

Thanks to all of you who have been so sweet, kind and understanding these last couple of months! Without you....I think I would be in the NUTHOUSE! I know I tend to go a little off the deep end at times but, you have helped soooooo much!! I'm hoping things will continue to look up and, I know it won't happen overnight! It is such a slow process! I promise to try & keep my emotions in check (I'll probably gain 40 lbs though...LOL)!!

I just don't get it!

What is with kids these days? We work our tails off to provide for them. They grow up. Then, we work our tails off to provide for them.......AND their kids! Sorry.......just a little frustration! I did get to go in the mountains this weekend....I'll post a couple pics.

campin' & stuff

We went camping this past weekend! That is such therapy for me! The really nice thing is....the people we camp with have the attitude, "It's your vacation....do what you want & have fun!" no one gets all hurt or offended if you choose to sleep almost the whole weekend (which is pretty much what I did....LOL)! I did go on 2 real nice (& sometimes scary) wheeler rides! I think I've just had so much stress & so little sleep in the past couple of months that it just caught up when I had the chance to relax! We did have a wonderful time though!

We got home Mon night & of course, I stayed up til around 6 am. Around 7:30 am, I found out my friends were not quite moved out of their old house to their new house. So, I went & spent the day helping them! Now, I have their little doggie as a foster child until......? She is the same breed as my dog and a little sweetheart! The 2 of them get along beautifully (I thought my dog would be jealous but, no she's not)! The thing that gets me is....I came home from work tonight & couldn't find either one! Well....they were both piled up in the bed with my husband! Good thing they're little...LOL! Well, the new baby has now taken a liking to my hubby & refused to leave his side! Why? I cannot figure out the answer to that question! I spoil them as much as he does! MY dog became his dog! Now it seems, this doggie prefers him too! He never wanted a little dog but wouldn't have any other breed now....he just can't help loving them! It's quite funny, actually! They are Silky Terriers.....wonderful dogs!!! I guess I just have to spoil them when he's not home cause they just stick with him when he is! I'll live though....really! In the pics, Paul is holding my dog, Sadie & the other beautiful Silky is our new foster child, Flossy!

YAY!

Well.....yesterday was a very good day! I went to a movie & lunch with my best friend in the whole world! We had a fabulous time (as we ususally do although, it's usually only 1 or 2 times a month)! Then when I got home, my daughter was there with all 3 of her babies! The daddy of the 3rd had taken him 1 month ago and was sorta holding him hostage to try and avoid paying child support! Now, he is home with the condition we give him back.......oh! that makes me laugh!!!! He will not see him again until a legal paper is filed establishing custody! I was unaware a single mother had to establish custody! It's true though! Anyways, point is....he's home, my daughter feels better & grandma gets to see her babies!!!

Love

I love my husband. I love my kids. I love the couple of true friends (maybe not blood...but family none the less) I have!

confused

That's me....confused! Seems I have stepped on some toes (in my family & theirs)! No one will ever know what these wonderful people did for me as a child (teen)! I know I'll never be family but, the bond we share is very special! It does not take love from anyone else! I'm really confused how someone could feel that way! It hurts, but I'm not gonna let it break my ties! I hope our children know we love them but sometimes, we need our friends that we can talk to. They have their friends & lives and do not change plans with them for us. We have done soooo much for our children out of love & concern and, it really hurts to be abandoned by them. I never had a mother who cared! I had sort of a surrogate mom for a while during a time in my life that I felt alone & if not for her (& her wonderful husband), I truly feel I would not be in this world! I guess that's hard to understand if you had parents that loved & protected you rather than hurting you (mentally AND physically) your entire life. I searched a long time for my surrogate parents & was sooooo looking forward to meeting & spending fun times with their children & ours but, I guess that's just a dream that will never be fulfilled.....what else is new? I'm used to rejection......but it still hurts!

Stephen's Kids

FINALLY! All of Stephen's kids in one pic!

Wheelin'

Paul & I went (along with a couple friends) wheelin' today! It was so much fun to be in the nice weather! We went locally! We really should do it more often!

The Mind Wanders

Well......about that age 50 thing! I find it harder & harder to sleep! It makes me tired...LOL! Have to say, I keep thinking about Farrah & Michael! Farrah....beautiful woman who proved to be a much finer actress than given credit for (remember The Burning Bed?)! Michael....like him or not, he was a very talented person I enjoyed very much Especially in the days of "Got To Be There", "Ben", "I'll Be There" (Sorry, Mariah.....J5 did it better)! Two icons gone in one day! Bummer!

50

Okay......so I keep hearing what a wonderful year 50 is......still waiting for the wonderful part!

kids

Kids can be very trying! Even after they grow up! Through the years, there have been good times & bad times! Sometimes, you just have to stop & breathe! While you are stopped, think about how much you love them &, how empty life would be without them!

Here are 2 of my goofy kids!

My Other Family

This has been a very hard week! I have to say that I appreciate my work family for their understanding and support! I've really tried to not freak out but, I feel bad for freaking out once! (Sorry, Staci! Thanks for your forgiveness)! It was a good night tonight & helped me feel a little better! I had a great patient and worked with wonderful people! I will continue to work on trying to be more positive! I Love Ya'll!!

Memorial Weekend Get Here!!!

Can't wait! Campin' and wheelin'........YAY!!!!

What?

It's been beautiful outside all week! I have worked all week! I am off for 2 days and guess what! It's raining!! It's supposed to rain tomorrow too! We're having friends over tomorrow! I guess our BBQ will become an indoor dinner....LOL! We'll have fun anyways!! Good friends & good company!

The rest of the Grandkids

They wouldn't all fit in the last post!

Michael seems to avoid the pics! So he is not in these!

Grandkids

I really didn't think my grandkids would grow up as fast as my kids! Pretty dumb, I know! They some how seem to be growing faster!

Free Therapy....an advantage to the blog

OK....so I was really frustrated when I wrote that last blog but, it was good therapy that didn't cost me anything! Things are looking a little better today! Doesn't mean I won't quit worrying! I think that's a huge part of my nature but, I am better able to deal now. Everyone seems to be getting along well now! I'm not sure they really knew how stressed out I was! Back to work tomorrow..... well......today.

A Rock and A HARD place!

It was a gorgeous day today (well...yesterday, really)! I hope that's really the beginning of spring! We enjoyed a wonderful dinner with some dear friends at The Texas Roadhouse! Then, we rode around a little with top down on the convertible. We got home, our friends came in to visit a while and then......drama! My daughter is having a hard time understanding why she isn't allowed to have her boyfriend spend the night and my hubby seems to think that sitting on the bed, fully clothed (including shoes and not even touching, mind you) watching TV is a horrible sin! First of all, my daughter is 26 yo.....not 14! So needless to say, I do not have a problem with her boyfriend watching TV in her bedroom with the door open! So.....a disagreement occurred and our friends quickly left. I feel very bad that on one of the few nights my husband & I actually get to spend enjoyable time together and with wonderful friends, my daughter had to bring the drama! I love her dearly! She has made mistakes but, that does not change my love for her! She is working very hard in school! Why can't she just accept the help (lots of it) we are giving her and be greatful she has it? She will someday have her own place where she can do as she pleases. I have backed my husband up on the sleepover thing but.........watching TV? Come on!!!! Why can't she be treated like she has a little sense and be trusted a little? We all talked! Everyone loves everyone but, I really wish the talk could've waited without someone trying to run away acting soooo not the 26 yo she wants to be treated like! I hate being stuck in the middle but even more.........I hate that my rare fun night with wonderful friends was cut short because of a stupid argument!!!

Global Warming?

I keep hearing about global warming but, I just looked out my window and saw snow! Again! It's not sticking to the ground....yet! Hopefully, it won't! Maybe there is global warming going on but here in UT, it's dang cold! Well......every other day or so anyways!

Isn't it spring yet?

Just when you think Spring is here, BOOM! It snows!!! Could I be mistaken about when Spring is supposed to start? All I know is.....I really want to go camping! It would be nice if it it didn't snow! I am at the point where I have cabin fever so bad, I'll even camp in the snow! SOON! I usually camp with a very diverse little group of people but even with all our differences, we have a fabulous time and can't wait to do it again!

Twilight Time (uh oh.....I cheated)!

OK......so I saw that Twilight movie. I have to say I enjoyed it very much! I did understand it but just from what I've read in the book so far, I am glad I went ahead and watched it! The book seems to be more detailed and, I think I would not have enjoyed the movie so much had I finished the book! I bought this movie for my friend's birthday and am supposed to watch it with her this week! I still want to and hope if she gets wind that I saw it, she'll still watch it with me anyways! You see, I bought it from Amazon and since it came out on the weekend, I won't receive it til Mon. Imagine my surprise when they sent me a code to watch it online at midnight! I tried to ignore it for a while and wait to see it with my friend but, well.....anyone who knows me knows I have zippo in the willpower dept. Still......I enjoyed it & will watch it again and again!

The Dang List

OK...OK...OK!

I have now been tagged by 2 people so I guess I better do this...LOL! I have no idea who to tag though as all of these people kinda form a circle so..... Why don't you all just do the dang list & we'll all find out everything we wanted to know....and then some. I am so outspoken I don't possibly believe there is anything about me no one already knows! LOL!!

The RULES:

1. List 10 honest things about yourself--and make it interesting even if you have to dig deep.

2. Pass the award on to 7 bloggers that you feel embody the spirit of Honest Scrap...

So.......here goes........

1.I don't want to outlive my husband or kids.....weird, I know but....nonetheless how I feel!I adore them!

2.I (like Kim) .....had 7 yrs piano lessons (although I paid my allowance to get them) and 8 yrs violin (in school mostly but, about 2 yrs private lessons ....which I also paid for myself). I can play some piano and less violin. My violin was stolen when I was 23 and I have recently aquired another. Not as nice but....I don't play as nice either. I will continue to practice though.

3.I love reading! Problem is....I always read about 4 books at the same time. Depending on my mood, I will pick one to read when I go to bed. Thus, I fall asleep and don't get too much read but, I still enjoy reading!

4.I wish I had been a better mother to my kids! They say I was and am a great mom but, I think I could've spent a little more time with them!

5.I once was gonna be a great country and western singer (don't cha know) but now....I can barely sing!

6.I love my job but tend to burn out. I wish I could go part-time but, that is not gonna happen!

7.I miss my brother and my dad!

8.I always wanted to fit in but never have (except with my husband and kids who have a lot of patience and get me).

9.I hugged Ray Charles once. I met the members of REO Speedwagon and have a guitar pick from their guitar player with the band insignia and his name imprinted in it!

10.(Whew! It's hard to come up with 10 things)! I have so many weird stories about my family that a lot of people think I am BS-ing but, they're real! I know.....I was (and am) there! Probably why I am weird!

The End!

Paul's Birthday

Yesterday was Paul's birthday! So.......I had the day off! He had to work....LOL!! He came home and told me someone at work did a very good job of singing Happy Birthday ala Marilyn Monroe! Oh! I wish I had been there to see it!!! Then, he told me I shouldn't have told anyone it was his birthday but, the little twinkle in his eye told me he was secretly thrilled!! We went out Mon. night! SO.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABY!!

Celine....What A Voice!

So......CELINE WAS EVERYTHING I HOPED SHE WOULD BE!!! She is one of the very few who sounds as good live as she does on a CD! She is funny, passionate & puts on a spectacular show! I was not disappointed at all &, I am not sorry I hocked my stereo to go to this fabulous concert! OK.....so I didn't hock my stereo but, I thought I might have to! LOL! My husband also enjoyed it & said he was very impressed! That's great coming from a Pink Floyd fan! I would highly recommend seeing her if you're ever given the chance!!!

Celine, finally.....I hope!

So here it is 8 AM! Have I slept? No! Celine is tonight! So far.....it hasn't been postponed again! (KNOCK ON WOOD)!!! I just can't wait! What a beautiful voice this woman has! I hope cameras are allowed! You know......sometimes they are, sometimes they aren't! My cell phome was almost taken from me at one concert I hve attended! No cameras were allowed.......although...... I saw may people had them! This is the way I see it! I paid a darn good buck for those tickets (they are not $7....like they were when I was a teen.....a few years ago)! I think for the price I paid, I should be allowed to have my camera with me! So here's hopin'!!!! I'll let you all know!

I'm still alive (believe it or not)

I've been playin' with this new phone I got, going to movies (good ones), watching a lot of TV and generally, being lazy on my days off! Sometimes......I just don't know what to write about! I miss my family down in the good ole (WARM) south! I miss my (adopted) sis, Glory Ann and I miss my husband cuz we keep missin' each other with our different schedules! Sometimes, I get 5 or 10 minutes before I have to rush off to work myself! I miss the heck out of Kim and Rachael! They always put a bright spot in my day!

Well....there's my ramble for the day! Good night (well, I guess it's morning....LOL)!

Been Awhile....

Sorry! Grandkids have been sick. Furnace broke down. Husband still workin' on the roof (sun or snow....makes me a little nervous). I work. Any more excuses? Naw....don't think so! I haven't really had alot going on except the aforementioned things! I'll include a pic of mypoor little sick, pathetic grandchild....LOL!! I think she plays it up a little, but she really was sick!

My son will be home at the end of the month from Alaska (BRRRRR)! It will be so good to see him again. The girls (most) are doing well. They're both in school. One is struggling a bit, but I just keep encouraging her & hope she passes everything! It will be hard for her but she can do it!

Now....just preparing to go see Adele this month & Celine (hopefully) next month! I sure hope she's not sick and doesn't postpone again! One of the sweetest people I work with is not going to get to go because of the last postponement! The new date just didn't work out! That would be disheartening to me!

Everyone's well (right this minute). I'm feelin' better. I hope you all are well too!

Some People's Friends...LOL!

So, we spent a wonderful evening with some dear friends of ours shortly after Christmas! She made me promise I would not put her pic on my blog! Well....this is the best thing I could come up with! I wish you could all see how cute this pic is! By the way....HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!