campin' & stuff

We went camping this past weekend! That is such therapy for me! The really nice thing is....the people we camp with have the attitude, "It's your vacation....do what you want & have fun!" no one gets all hurt or offended if you choose to sleep almost the whole weekend (which is pretty much what I did....LOL)! I did go on 2 real nice (& sometimes scary) wheeler rides! I think I've just had so much stress & so little sleep in the past couple of months that it just caught up when I had the chance to relax! We did have a wonderful time though!

We got home Mon night & of course, I stayed up til around 6 am. Around 7:30 am, I found out my friends were not quite moved out of their old house to their new house. So, I went & spent the day helping them! Now, I have their little doggie as a foster child until......? She is the same breed as my dog and a little sweetheart! The 2 of them get along beautifully (I thought my dog would be jealous but, no she's not)! The thing that gets me is....I came home from work tonight & couldn't find either one! Well....they were both piled up in the bed with my husband! Good thing they're little...LOL! Well, the new baby has now taken a liking to my hubby & refused to leave his side! Why? I cannot figure out the answer to that question! I spoil them as much as he does! MY dog became his dog! Now it seems, this doggie prefers him too! He never wanted a little dog but wouldn't have any other breed now....he just can't help loving them! It's quite funny, actually! They are Silky Terriers.....wonderful dogs!!! I guess I just have to spoil them when he's not home cause they just stick with him when he is! I'll live though....really! In the pics, Paul is holding my dog, Sadie & the other beautiful Silky is our new foster child, Flossy!

YAY!

Well.....yesterday was a very good day! I went to a movie & lunch with my best friend in the whole world! We had a fabulous time (as we ususally do although, it's usually only 1 or 2 times a month)! Then when I got home, my daughter was there with all 3 of her babies! The daddy of the 3rd had taken him 1 month ago and was sorta holding him hostage to try and avoid paying child support! Now, he is home with the condition we give him back.......oh! that makes me laugh!!!! He will not see him again until a legal paper is filed establishing custody! I was unaware a single mother had to establish custody! It's true though! Anyways, point is....he's home, my daughter feels better & grandma gets to see her babies!!!

Love

I love my husband. I love my kids. I love the couple of true friends (maybe not blood...but family none the less) I have!

confused

That's me....confused! Seems I have stepped on some toes (in my family & theirs)! No one will ever know what these wonderful people did for me as a child (teen)! I know I'll never be family but, the bond we share is very special! It does not take love from anyone else! I'm really confused how someone could feel that way! It hurts, but I'm not gonna let it break my ties! I hope our children know we love them but sometimes, we need our friends that we can talk to. They have their friends & lives and do not change plans with them for us. We have done soooo much for our children out of love & concern and, it really hurts to be abandoned by them. I never had a mother who cared! I had sort of a surrogate mom for a while during a time in my life that I felt alone & if not for her (& her wonderful husband), I truly feel I would not be in this world! I guess that's hard to understand if you had parents that loved & protected you rather than hurting you (mentally AND physically) your entire life. I searched a long time for my surrogate parents & was sooooo looking forward to meeting & spending fun times with their children & ours but, I guess that's just a dream that will never be fulfilled.....what else is new? I'm used to rejection......but it still hurts!

Stephen's Kids

FINALLY! All of Stephen's kids in one pic!