YAY!

Well.....yesterday was a very good day! I went to a movie & lunch with my best friend in the whole world! We had a fabulous time (as we ususally do although, it's usually only 1 or 2 times a month)! Then when I got home, my daughter was there with all 3 of her babies! The daddy of the 3rd had taken him 1 month ago and was sorta holding him hostage to try and avoid paying child support! Now, he is home with the condition we give him back.......oh! that makes me laugh!!!! He will not see him again until a legal paper is filed establishing custody! I was unaware a single mother had to establish custody! It's true though! Anyways, point is....he's home, my daughter feels better & grandma gets to see her babies!!!

Love

I love my husband. I love my kids. I love the couple of true friends (maybe not blood...but family none the less) I have!

confused

That's me....confused! Seems I have stepped on some toes (in my family & theirs)! No one will ever know what these wonderful people did for me as a child (teen)! I know I'll never be family but, the bond we share is very special! It does not take love from anyone else! I'm really confused how someone could feel that way! It hurts, but I'm not gonna let it break my ties! I hope our children know we love them but sometimes, we need our friends that we can talk to. They have their friends & lives and do not change plans with them for us. We have done soooo much for our children out of love & concern and, it really hurts to be abandoned by them. I never had a mother who cared! I had sort of a surrogate mom for a while during a time in my life that I felt alone & if not for her (& her wonderful husband), I truly feel I would not be in this world! I guess that's hard to understand if you had parents that loved & protected you rather than hurting you (mentally AND physically) your entire life. I searched a long time for my surrogate parents & was sooooo looking forward to meeting & spending fun times with their children & ours but, I guess that's just a dream that will never be fulfilled.....what else is new? I'm used to rejection......but it still hurts!

Stephen's Kids

FINALLY! All of Stephen's kids in one pic!

Wheelin'

Paul & I went (along with a couple friends) wheelin' today! It was so much fun to be in the nice weather! We went locally! We really should do it more often!

The Mind Wanders

Well......about that age 50 thing! I find it harder & harder to sleep! It makes me tired...LOL! Have to say, I keep thinking about Farrah & Michael! Farrah....beautiful woman who proved to be a much finer actress than given credit for (remember The Burning Bed?)! Michael....like him or not, he was a very talented person I enjoyed very much Especially in the days of "Got To Be There", "Ben", "I'll Be There" (Sorry, Mariah.....J5 did it better)! Two icons gone in one day! Bummer!

50

Okay......so I keep hearing what a wonderful year 50 is......still waiting for the wonderful part!